Okay, so my life in Florida consisted of being a single mom, always on the go, completely career driven, social butterfly. Now, that we're in Texas, I'm a pseudo mom to four kiddos who works from home and is basically playing "housewife." In other words... I'm having some trouble adjusting. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love being here! I finally have the family I wanted with a man who is nothing short of amazing, I maintained my job from Florida by working from home and still get to exercise my brain and have a significant income, and I have an incredible family (both mine and his) and friend base that is rock solid with no drama at all! So, what the hell is so difficult for me??? I just can't seem to figure it out.
The first week was cake... I kicked into "mommy" mode and had a lot to keep me busy, but now that we're settling in a bit, I've found myself getting overwhelmed more and more often throughout the day. I don't understand it! Chaos = calm and satisfied, but Comfortable = overwhelmed and uneasy. That just doesn't make any sense.
I'm sure this is all just part of the adjustment period, but I really hope this unsettling feeling disappears really soon because it is not fun. Plus, Brendon apparently picks up on my moods way too easily which is a good and a bad thing. He's so good to me that he doesn't need to be burdened by the fact I'm quite apparently insane! (At least not in this scenario - LOL.)
